Yes! My mysterious AF has arrived, and even earlier than my clinic predicted. So I just have one little hoop to jump through before we can officially start IVF#3…. a day 2 blood test tomorrow. Hopefully all my obnoxiously misbehaved hormones will tow the line and be on their best behaviour tomorrow. My FSH is the one that I’m a bit worried about as it’s always been borderline and because my cycle has been so mucked up recently I am holding my breath that it isn’t because of my rebel FSH hormone levels.
How natural is it for a IF’er to be looking forward to the next ‘problem’ rather than just going into a situation with blissful ignorance? Any suggestions on where on earth I can find my blissful ignorance? I haven’t seen it for far too long and am scared it’s been smothered to death by bitter negativity.
On other news, I had my first acupuncture appointment on Tuesday. I had such a terrible morning leading up to the appointment that I was a complete mess by the time I arrived (a day that starts with an argument is NOT a good one). She took my pulse and said “Whoa, you are running on adrenaline only aren’t you?” And I closed my eyes and forced the tears not to start again (had shed far to many of them for one day). We spoke about my childhood problems with my kidneys and if you’ve had acupuncture will know that in traditional chinese medicine the kidneys are the main connection to fertility. So she immediately thought there were a number of things she could try to get my kidneys and my uterus more friendly with each other. She also asked me if there was a particular time of the day that I lack energy and when I replied with “around 5-7pm” she smiled knowingly. This freaked me out a little and then she pulled out a diagram which shows that in traditional chinese medicine they believe that energy travels through the body at different times of the day and each organ has a specific time that it is most active. Heres the spooky bit.. the time that the kidneys are most active is between 5-7pm, which in my acupuncturist’s mind, explains why this is a time of the day I always feel tired and indicates that my kidneys are a bit sluggish. I won’t deny she had me intrigued but my knee jerk reaction is to be cautious of anything vaguely ’airy fairy’. But the airy-fairy stuff aside, I loved the acupuncture session. After the stressful day I had I found it difficult to relax to begin with, but by the end of the session I was in another world and really felt that ’something’ had happened. Whatever it was, I walked out a better person and hopefully that is because my kidneys & ovaries are now good friends who will welcome the ivf drugs with open arms. I really like the acupuncturist I chose, she has a lot of experience working with infertility & pregnancy and I didn’t have to explain the ins & outs of ivf to her which was what I was dreading. I hate having to go back to basics with explaining the ivf process to people, it’s just a big reminder that I know too much about a subject i’d rather be unaware of, so to have someone who already knew that stuff made me feel a bit more normal.
So hopefully i’ll be starting my injections tomorrow (please let my FSH be normal) and then it will be full steam ahead towards getting pregnant before Christmas.
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